It's the hardest thing for me to shake...

Sometimes you just have to let go. Even if you have nothing else to hold on to. The feeling of freefalling is not a pleasant one at first. But once you adapt, you can learn to live without having something to hold on to. Without being attached to anyone. Once the need to be attached is no longer present, perhaps our lives can become more free. Or maybe we will keep living in denial, but at least the risk of getting hurt again will be slim. My heart is to remain closed until I know for sure that it's worth it. Amor e morte.