And I should contemplate this change, to ease the pain...

Sometimes we can hurt so much that it seems like we are not living in this world. I can walk around and be so consumed in my pain that it feels like I'm not even living. That everything around me is some far away place that I couldn't escape to even if I tried. And it gets to the point where everything just feels so hard....that it seems like it would be much easier to drift away in this painful state. To let it entirely encapsulate and devour me. Until there is nothing left. And in this state I would be free because in this world of pain I would not hurt anymore. Life would end. And the pain would end with it. I'm so tired of fighting...what's so wrong with giving in... What's the point in living when I am dead inside. - amor e morte