i'm better off alone.

when you finally trust me, finally believe in me...i will let you down. so that you know how it feels. why do i keep giving in and trying to make it work with someone that clearly doesn't appreciate me or value me...and doesn't understand me. and doesn't want to understand me? why do i make a fool out of myself time and time again with someone that only wants to be with me when it suits them? and why do i accept the blame so many times when it's not my fault, just because he refuses to see or admit to his flaws and issues? why do i keep on believing that he cares aboujtk any of this and wants to work at it for me? because deep down i know he won't. why do i accept less than what i know i deserve....and why do i keep on running back and apologising for things that i know i shouldn't apologise for...? maybe i'm just scared of being alone. even though i know i am probably better off that way. - amor r morte.