And isolation is all that will remain...

I wish I could stop caring. I wish I didn't care about so many things. I wish I would never care about anything ever again. Why do I allow myself to get to this place time and time again? Why do I go allow myself to be lured in by the games and lies? I don't know if I can get past it this time...I can't see myself being repaired. I can't see there ever being a sun. I opened up my heart, and held my arms open wide. Just for you. You wormed your way in, despite knowing how afraid I was to let someone in again; to love again...and once you made your nest in there, you unleashed your parasites to feed on every last bit of blood that my heart was pumping. You deprived me of oxygen so that my heart slowly died. Even though it was still trying to beat for you..you pulled on my heart strings more. Until there was nothing left. And then you ripped it out of my chest and trampled on it with glee. The sad thing is that you don't realise any of this. You can't see any of your flaws...you won't admit to doing any wrong. Yet, I was supposed to change... You don't deserve me. You don't deserve anyone. So why am I so sad? I don't know. I don't know who you are anymore. Or maybe I never really knew you in the first place. - amor e morte.