The sky is closed today, so here I sit, waiting... For a word that is hidden in clouds; to take me back from here...

The feelings of helplessness and inadequacy that are associated with heartbreak are almost unbearable. I can't stop thinking of him...of the memories that we shared and of our time together. I miss the simple things...I miss waking up next to him. I wish that he felt the same. I wish that he cherished our time together and that he had good memories to take away...instead he only sees the negative. He doesn't even see the wonderful person that I am inside anymore. And that makes me so sad. Perhaps the worst part is that he just doesn't care about me anymore. Was it all a lie? I will never know. Even though I know it is for the best, I can't help but wish that I could have another chance...and that he still wanted me. Amor e morte.